Calm

​Today i decided to get to the root of a panic attack and i realise – the triggers are quite common. This one happened to be a mix of when theres a situation supposed social happiness but i just am really fundamentally so scared of it and at the same time im looking at another situation of  emotional hurt, aggression and sadness inflicted by others.
I dont know how to resolve it. But here are some things that i emerged with and im holding onto them trembling.

1. Its ok. Its all ok

Social goods – social situations where you feel like youre at fault for not saying the right thing, doijg the right thing, being the right thing and being happy and hence causing everyone to be upset or less happy and like you less,

Its all ok

Its ok to not be happy

Dont worry. Dont worry. Okay people. Dont blame yourself. It doesnt matter. Its ok.

It may be all my fault that things arent as shiny as they could be and thats ok

Its not worth taking your life. Its not worth hurting yourself over it.

It is all okay.

I forgive you and thats all you need in this whole wide world

2. On love – 

Its the lowest and your worst and somehow that person who ‘loves’ you and is trying to care for you and get to you and cheer you up and love yoy
Its ok

Just step away 

Its ok to feel even more triggered 

Becaause yknow why? We’ve been conditioned to feel like social/attempts to make us feel better need to be rewarded by us feeling healed and feeling better

And its ok if it doesnt 

Its ok if you dont feel better 

You’re ok

I love you. Its ok that 

You cant even begin to trust or understand what the other person is saying

And that his claims of care mean next to nothing because you cant feel it and you dont even know what it is all about.

Your walls are up

A d thats okay

They can stay up

shirin, i love you and i care for you 

Calm down you’re fine 

You’ll be ok

You”ll be fine.

Breathe.  Breathe

Thats right keep those thoughts at bay.

Hold it. Yep hold it.

Today i decided to get to the root of a panic attack and i realise – the triggers are quite common. This one happened to be a mix of when theres a situation supposed social happiness but i just am really fundamentally so scared of it and at the same time im looking at another situation of  emotional hurt, aggression and sadness inflicted by others.
I dont know how to resolve it. But here are some things that i emerged with and im holding onto them trembling.

1. Its ok. Its all ok

Social goods – social situations where you feel like youre at fault for not saying the right thing, doijg the right thing, being the right thing and being happy and hence causing everyone to be upset or less happy and like you less,

Its all ok

Its ok to not be happy

Dont worry. Dont worry. Okay people. Dont blame yourself. It doesnt matter. Its ok.

It may be all my fault that things arent as shiny as they could be and thats ok

Its not worth taking your life. Its not worth hurting yourself over it.

It is all okay.

I forgive you and thats all you need in this whole wide world

2. On love – 

Its the lowest and your worst and somehow that person who ‘loves’ you and is trying to care for you and get to you and cheer you up and love yoy
Its ok

Just step away 

Its ok to feel even more triggered 

Becaause yknow why? We’ve been conditioned to feel like social/attempts to make us feel better need to be rewarded by us feeling healed and feeling better

And its ok if it doesnt 

Its ok if you dont feel better 

You’re ok

I love you. Its ok that 

You cant even begin to trust or understand what the other person is saying

And that his claims of care mean next to nothing because you cant feel it and you dont even know what it is all about.

Your walls are up

A d thats okay

They can stay up

shirin, i love you and i care for you 

Calm down you’re fine 

You’ll be ok

You”ll be fine.

Breathe.  Breathe

Thats right keep those thoughts at bay.

Hold it. Yep hold it.

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